Trying to NOT Grow weary

I know what scripture says about not growing weary in doing good.  Ugh!  I guess that the Lord knew that there would be days and weeks and MONTHS like this, and so in His goodness and Kindness, HE reminds us not to grow weary, because in due season, we will reap a great harvest. (Gal 6:9) But, I do grow weary and I am currently weary.  When I look around, I see many weary people.  People who are wearier than me.....and I feel badly.  I really have nothing to feel weary about.  Things are good.  We are well.  We have more than enough.  But, when my focus is off, I grow weary.  I feel that things are out of control.  But, they aren't out of Gods control....just out of my control and that means stress to me!!!  Yet, I will not give up.  I will rest and trust and pray and wait.  And work and work and work and wait....wait on the Lord to change either my heart or the situation...but He himself will not change.  Most of the time, I find that God changes me in these times...and for that I am thankful.  Oh to not grow weary.  I am weary but I am not giving up.  Thank you Lord that you hear my prayers and that you are faithful.  Thank you that I am weary because you have heard my prayers and granted my hearts desire to me.  Please give me strength to walk in your truth and to push through when the weary times come.  Thank you that you do not allow me to stay there and thank you for tiny bits of respite and small glimpses of your goodness.  Thank you for small victories.  Help me O father, to see the victories and give you the honor and praise for them!

epic fail

Well, today I had yet another chance to put on kindness and patience and self-control and I failed again!!!  Lord help me, please!  I am so self focused and want my own way!  It is often hard for me to see Gods hand in all things.....(especially when they seem to not go my way)...yet time and time again, I see Gods faithfulness and goodness to me.  But, as we talked about in Caregroup last night, the fact that Jesus Christ, himself came to earth as a baby and lived a perfect life....experienced everything that we could ever face yet did not sin, makes Him not only God with us, but God who goes before us and KNOWS us!!!  Now, this is NOT license to sin but, it gives me comfort to know that God is with me and is changing me to be more like his Son, Jesus Christ, my Savior!

Church

So very thankful for our church.  Thankful for the music that we sing and the truth that is taught!  I hope to get a copy of the words to the song our Choir sang today.  It was called "waiting"....Beautiful song!  Great lyrics and says so much about me in the waiting but so much more about GOD!!!  Thank you, Lord that you have placed us in this church among this body!

What comes around, goes around

I love a deal and I love yard sales and resale shops.  Today, I found a few good deals at some yard sales, though it was COLD!!!!  I also found myself a new used bag that just MIGHT hold everything I need!!!  Also at this resale shop, EVERYTHING was 50% off!  That is dangerous for someone like me who loves a good deal and has a little extra cash in my pocket.  Thankfully, I only bought the bag and a pair of rubber boots for Gracelyn!!!  But this other place, I fell in love with it.  THE SPARROWS NEST.  This place is on  Kanis right past Bowman.  It is a resale shop but not like you would think.  It is like a designer boutique.  They do take donations, but not clothes and shoes....they take beautiful things and re purpose them into other beautiful things and then sell them to you and me.  They also take other decorator type things, candles and they have some great paintings.  And the wonderful thing about this place is, they are non profit and they use their income to help people who have been harmed by human trafficking.  This is a GREAT place and I will be going back from time to time.  I did find one little treasure.  I know, it is quirky but I just loved it.  I saw it and walked all the way out to the car, got ready to leave and just had to go back inside to get it.  It is a sugar bowl and I LOVE it!!!!

Completion

Well, because of the goodness of the Lord, I was able to complete not ONE but several tasks today!  Now, please do not read this as me boasting, read it as one thankful gal!  I am thankful that I got some things done.  Here we go:

*  Quiet time this morning (short but great)

*  Kitchen CLEAN (fridge cleaned out, dishwasher unloaded, and reloaded)

*  4 loads of laundry DONE and PUT AWAY (read HUGE DEAL)

*  Email inbox cleaned out from 389 to 65

*  One thing accomplished in my home manager book

*  Drawn out design of a slight remodel desire that I have 

And to top it ALL off, I had a great texting conversation with a dear dear friend!  Though it was not voice to voice...at this season of OUR lives where we are both very busy, and really in totally different stages of life...it was soooo good.  So good for many reasons.  Relationships take work.  They are hard.  I am relational AND this friend holds me accountable and asks hard questions at times.  She provokes and challenges me in good ways.  I am thankful for all that got done today and for the fact that I got to "talk" to my friend...who challenges, encourages and prays for me!

L A Z Y you ain't got no aliby

Do you remember that song?  I am confessing here.....I am lazy.  I know it, and many around me know it and I HATE it!  Just tonight as I was cleaning up dinner, I came to the very end, the very very end and I was done!  I was ready to quit....thinking to myself, oh it is just one bowl and a few forks, just leave those in the sink until tomorrow because....well because I am done!  Is that terrible?  I am not proud of this.  I am not bragging.  I am confessing and confession is good for the soul.   This blog is also an indication of my laziness.  I am a great starter and a terrible finisher.  What does the bible say about laziness?  Oh my word!!!!  Here is what Proverbs 13:4 says: " The soul of the sluggard craves and gets nothing....." do you see it?  Gets nothing!!!!  Not that I do things to receive things, because I don't, I do things because I am called to, because I enjoy doing things and because I have to....but to see that the sluggard craves and gets nothing makes me frightened and makes me feel sad!  I don't want to be seen as a sluggard.  I also think for myself, it makes me not a woman of my word, and that does not honor the Lord!  So, I have made a list of things that I want to continue, start or finish.....and this blog is one.  I want to continue it as I have time, because it is something that I enjoy and it helps me process sometimes.  I want to start getting up earlier because I need to in order to accomplish some things and I want to finish my home manager book...(more on that later)!!!  : p